First of all there are 36 people (at least) plus (a few of) my block mates and a couple of "friends" exempted from these.
I HATE THE WORLD! I only try to make things better! I want everyone to be happy but you just don't seem to care and get WAYS TO FUCK WITH MY LIFE! SO SCREW YOU!
I never want to hurt anybody but things get to FUCK THEMSELVES when i am concerned. FUCK being nice! FUCK being EMO! FUCK just being alive! FUCK LIFE!
People say things will be better, you know what? THAT'S BULLSHIT!
THE ONLY TIME THINGS GET BETTER IS WHEN YOU DIE!
I just want to say, FUCK YOU all! FUCK YOU for making my life so miserable! FUCK YOU for destroying everything I had. FUCK YOU for doing these things to me! FUCK YOU for judging me! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! and FUCK YOU!
YOU WANT TO CHEER ME UP?! FUCK YOU! TRY BURNING ME TILL IM ALL ASHES AND SEND ME TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS THAT WOULD CHEER ME UP!
THANK YOU FUCKERS!
That's enough of angst and hatred.
Ides of March:
Tie me up with sheets and hang me from your tree. I'll stay out here all night, it doesn't even matter. As long as i can see into your room, and feel like I'm inside your life, I'll follow you forever. Don't cut me down just yet, I'll make things right again. Don't close your blinds on me.
I WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS, I'LL NEVER BELIEVE IN THIS AGAIN. I CAN NEVER GO BACK TO THE WAY I USED TO BE BEFORE THIS STARTED.
The Snow won't go away, my nose runs down my face. No one see me here. IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER. And EVERY STEP I TAKE I STAY IN THE SAME PLACE.
I CAN'T BEGIN TO START AGAIN, WHY CAN'T I JUST BE PERFECT?
You've seen my ghost and you'll never forget it. My face is as white as the snow that haunts me. Your window's my door and nothing can stop me. Sometimes betrayal can make you happy.
--> Its so damn hard. To live a life of lies. A life of endless sacrifices. That sometimes, you do the stupidest things and you regret it. Only fools regret the things they've done and i guess I'm the biggest fool. Ive left and hurt an important person, she has moved on and i guess all i am to the person is a name and a number.
I don't blame anybody but myself for the shithole i dug myself in. call it karma. call it stupidity. call it whatever you fucking want. I made myself a promise before, that id always be hers and i guess its haunting me. I made mistakes, im only human, but this mistake i can't correct. I've given my 200% and right now, its still hers. I dont want it back, in a way i dont plan to take it back.
Call me stupid, but all i want is for her to be happy. I know how i feel, I know it can never be returned now with what i've done but still, I feel that way.
So FUCK all of YOU who would judge me. FUCK all of YOU who would pity me. FUCK all of YOU who dont understand! FUCK all of YOU who made me feel all is a mistake!
Always and Never:
This was my fate, giving in, to your lips to your eyes. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN IT WOULD COME BACK TO HAUNT ME. Crooked smile, a reflection in your eyes that shows my weakness for beautiful mistakes, something that I know you've seen before. I'm not the first. Set the trap, I'm falling for it every time. I can't believe every one knew from the start, THIS WOULD COME BACK TO HAUNT ME. I CAN'T STAND TO SEE YOU NOW. How could I ever trust you?
I'LL TAKE IT BACK TO THE STREETS, I'LL START AGAIN. I'LL NEVER LOOK BACK, I'LL NEVER LOOK BACK.
How do you feel? I BET YOU DON'T FEEL ANYTHING. DON'T HAVE A HEART ATTACK, DON'T HAVE A HEART ATTACK. BUT I WONT STOP YOU.
Flying high, RAZOR BLADES MAKE PERFECT LINES, ON JUST ABOUT ANYTHING YOU WANT.
Broken pores spill out. EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO SAY, IT SHOWS MY WEAKNESS FOR FALLING IN LOVE WITH MY WALLOWING DESPAIR THAT SHINES IN BLACK. I'LL TAKE IT BACK, I'LL BUILD IT BACK TO WHAT IT WAS. CUT ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE LIKE ITS NOTHING, LIKE I'M NOTHING. MAKE BELIEVE YOU CAN LOVE, THAT ITS BETTER, THAT YOU'RE BETTER. PART OF ME IS GONE, YOU'VE TAKEN PIECES OF ME. IT WONT STOP,
YOU NEVER CHANGE
--> I'm in a sorry state right now. And a part of me doesn't want to move on. It's a final decision of mine. I guess things will never change with me.
I have been a jerk, no I am a jerk, an ass, and all those dumb titles girls give guys. (stupid hos!) I've learned these by hurting people, hurting those who aren't supposed to be part of this, and it hurts.
I've hurt someone, due to my stupidity, my lack of intelligence and understanding of my own feelings. I've paid the price. I hate the fact that I've hurt someone. I hate myself for it. I HATE THE WORLD FOR IT.
I am sorry. I know there's no excuse for that, still i am sorry. You know who you are. I wouldn't be surprised if people you knew start to hate me. I understand, I'm used to being hated. I am hated.
To all of those who judge me because of this FUCK YOU! To those who didn't bother to help FUCK YOU! To those who doesn't even try to understand FUCK YOU! and to the World FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE!
Running from Lions:
Cut me out of this place, before i cause more damage. A small price to pay for building houses out of match sticks. and when things get to hard, you have get me to blame for every fight that breaks out for every lovers name.
DON'T FORGET WE'VE GOT UNFINISHED BUSINESS, STORIES LEFT TO UNFOLD, TALES THAT MUST BE RETOLD. AS I REGRET NOT KNOWING WHEN TO PUT AN END TO ALL THESE MADNESS, KEEPS ME WANTING, KEEPS ME WANTING MORE.
show me how I'm yesterday's old news freezes and left on paper black and bleeding through pages, where we made our history. Call me foolish, i feel helpless.
RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER FELT LIKE SUCH A MISTAKE. ( Like a dear caught in the headlights) RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER FELT SUCH A MISTAKE ( I wont know what hit me me.) RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER FELT SUCH A MISTAKE.( Like a dear caught in the headlights) RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER FELT SUCH A MISTAKE ( I wont know what hit me me.)
--> I guess, The song speaks for it self. I feel like the things i do are mistakes. It shows and tells me a lot on how i am. and i understand.
I hate the fact that I cant put an end to all these madness. I don't want this madness to end.
I am sorry, to all that got affected. I've made such mistakes, and thus lost things very dear to me. I am Foolish, I am helpless. I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT. I HATE THE FACT THAT I JUST FOUND OUT WHEN EVERYTHING WAS TOO LATE, AND I HURT PEOPLE. I BLAME MYSELF.
I'M JUST HANGING ON HOPE FOR THE FUTURE. A VERY SMALL AND UNSURE PART OF THE FUTURE TO HAPPEN. I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE BETTER OF WITHOUT ME. I KNOW THEIR DOING A LOT BETTER THAT I AM GONE.
I JUST HOPE.
P.S. No more EMO SHIT . THIS IS THE LAST. (I hope.)
Always All Ways:
I GUESS I'M TRYING TO SAY I'M SORRY, BUT IT ALWAYS COMES OUT WRONG, I THINK A PART OF YOU STILL LOVES ME, EVEN THOUGH WE'RE MOVING ON.
ALWAYS, ALL WAYS I WANTED US TO BE, ALWAYS, ALL WAYS YOU AND ME, AND I WAIT HERE ON MY OWN,
AND I WAIT FOR YOU TO SEE, ALL THE TIME I SPEND ALONE NOW WONT COMFORT ME,
ALWAYS ALL WAYS...
AND I'M SORRY FOR WHAT HAPPENED, BUT I WANT YOU THERE TO SEE, THAT I'M CHANGING ALL MY ACTIONS, I DON'T WANNA SET YOU FREE.
ALWAYS, ALL WAYS I WANT TO SEE YOU THROUGH, ALL WAYS YOU AND ME, AND I WAIT HERE ON MY OWN,
AND I WAIT FOR YOU TO SEE, ALL THE TIME I SPEND ALONE NOW WONT COMFORT ME,
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