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Sunday, June 03, 2007

Bull shit

<table border='0' cellpadding='5' cellspacing='0' width='600'><tr><td><img src="http://quizfarm.com//images/1148569104temp3.jpg"  ></td><td>You scored as <b>Steve Nash</b>, You play like Steve Nash. You love passing. That might be your best quality and ability. You are a threat because you can pull up and shoot, or pass the ball off to an open player to score. You keep the game moving fast. You are not known for your defense, but you make up for that offensively.<br><br><table border='0' width='300' cellspacing='0' cellpadding='0'><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Steve Nash</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='76' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>76%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Jason Kidd</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='73' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>73%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>LeBron James</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='70' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>70%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Ben Gordon</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='63' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>63%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Richard Hamilton</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='60' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>60%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Michael Redd</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='57' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>57%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Richard Jefferson</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='53' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>53%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Dirk Nowitzki</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='53' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>53%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Kevin Garnett</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='50' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>50%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Shawn Marion</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='47' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>47%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Dwyane Wade</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='40' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>40%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Ron Artest</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='20' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>20%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Ben Wallace</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='17' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>17%</font></td></tr> <tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Kobe Bryant</font></p></td><td><table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='14' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>14%</font></td></tr> </td></tr></table><br><a href='http://quizfarm.com/run.php/Quiz?quiz_id=47650'>What NBA basketball player are you?</a><br><font face='Arial' size='1'>created with <a href='http://quizfarm.com'>QuizFarm.com</a></font></table>


Monday, February 26, 2007

Its really not quite a normal day.



I guess you never really thought It would matter this much to me..



               
...Damn! what are you doing to me?! I'm so in to you...


is all I could think about.



Hope you get the messege...  


 




Tuesday, January 09, 2007

I never want to be part of the herd. I guess I was in case you haven’t heard.Maybe you can tell that I can’t stand. The way I want to be the included. I always want to be a mystery. I always knew that two and two made three. I wish away the time I’m living in. I NEVER WANNA SEE THE SMILE AGAIN.


Chorus
It’s not for sure
And I’m feeling
Like it’s not for sure
Come on and take a drink with me
Whoaaa whoaaa
I DON'T THINK YOU CAN COPE WITH IT.
I DON'T THINK YOU CAN HANDLE IT.

Whoaaa whoaaa
Forgive my un-forgetfulness
And take a drink with me

I wanted to be two, but more than one. I ONLY THOUGHT I COULD BE SO DUMB. Crush my heart with your new heels. I’d beg for you, but I don’t kneel. I understand that you were living there. It never bothered me that I don’t care. I WONDER IF I'LL ACT ON MY IMPULSE. I wonder if I’ll leave if you say go

Chorus

Whoa would you take a drink with me. IF ITS ALL YOU CAN TAKE. It’ll be okay. If it’s all I can take. THEN JUST PUT ME AWAY


Chorus

Whoaaa Whoaaa I don’t think you can cope with it So take a drink with me

I never want to be part of the herd. I guess I was in case you haven’t heard. I wanna spend some time to make you see. So why not come and take a drink with me?
 

--> Its really irritating, and I guess I'm getting used to it. A lot of people in this world that I know are just not really friends.

In a way they're fuck ups. They say things that make you feel good they say they support you and all that shit. In reality, they're just making you see that he/she is your friend. Things would be fine, till something big comes up.

They JUDGE you right there and then with that incident in mind. Some friends people are. They JUDGE you and HATE you. Things real friends do. Its really amazing, that they get to hate people that they say they were friends with. JUDGE me, I dont mind, but DON'T you fucking judge me if you don't know anything. I have a FUCKED up life I know that, by the way THANKS FOR MAKING IT MORE FUCKED UP!

Its you people that I have been always afraid of, the type that goes, "hey I'm your friend." but in reality knows nothing and never listens, never even try. But its ok, I'm used to you people. Thanks to your types I see who really are friends, they're the people that can see the FUCKING TRUTH, not like you that sees me and bring up a FAKE smile, but deep inside angst. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SMILE THEN DON'T BITCHES! I know I've done a lot of mistakes and with that a lot of enemies, I get the idea, you're against me. so don't FAKE being my friends.

Thanks to you people I FEEL DUMB, DUMB for TRUSTING YOU. I KNOW HOW IT WORKS, I KNOW I'M PUT AWAY. DON'T WORRY, DON'T NEED YOU, I DON'T NEED FUCK UPS! I AM A FUCK UP I CAN'T EVEN HANDLE. So PLEASE DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT TO DO, DON'T EVER TELL ME WHAT'S RIGHT AND WRONG THING TO DO, YOU AREN'T SOMEBODY WHO HAS THE RIGHT YOU PEOPLE THAT ARE SO CALLED "FRIENDS" KNOW NOTHING. JUST ASSUME AND JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS, THAT'S WHERE YOU ARE GOOD AT.

If you don't want to see the the truth I will not force.

I will not name names, I won't sink that low. I'm sure you know who you are.

SO DON'T YOU FUCKING JUDGE ME!

Thanks for those who are really my friends, you too know who you are, Thanks for understanding, trusting, listening and just inquiring. It means a lot. YOU ROCK MOTHER FUCKERS!!

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

POWER TO THE LONELY CREW! BROS OVER HOS!!!!!!

here's one for everyone... that cares... for those TORPEDOES that go "HAPPY NEW YEAR."

They grew up in the same old town. Never knowing the other was around. Read from the damn books. But never caught each other's looks. But one day the sun will shine, I know for their eyes have told me so Chasing advice from those who say I've lost my mind

Chorus
Rush together to find each other
No it's too late, you can never wait for luck
Together playing the same instrument
That you still cant hear at all

(At all, at all)

So that's how the story goes so far. I'll tell you the rest, but now I'm tired of what I think A situation where I can't sing but I hate the vagrant life, I know Nothing has been more sold, 'till now living my life for those who say I've lost my mind

Chorus

So what do you say What do you say Can we turn this clock back thirteen years And relate I won't mind Can we stay But isn't it fate Isn't it fate That we spilled our guts out On this very day I don't mind I want to I want to Rush together to find each other (stay) No it's too late you can never wait for luck Together playing the same instrument


Are you listening at all
Are you listening at all

 

 


Friday, December 15, 2006










LAST EMO... (I Hope...)

First of all there are 36 people (at least) plus (a few of) my block mates
and a couple of "friends" exempted from these.



I HATE THE WORLD! I only try to make things better! I want everyone to be
happy but you just don't seem to care and get WAYS TO FUCK WITH MY LIFE! SO
SCREW YOU!



I never want to hurt anybody but things get to FUCK THEMSELVES when i am
concerned. FUCK being nice! FUCK being EMO! FUCK just being alive!  FUCK
LIFE!



People say things will be better, you know what? THAT'S BULLSHIT!



THE ONLY TIME THINGS GET BETTER IS WHEN YOU DIE!


I just want to say, FUCK YOU all! FUCK YOU for making my life so miserable!
FUCK YOU for destroying everything I had. FUCK YOU for doing these things to me!
FUCK YOU for judging me! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! and FUCK YOU!


YOU WANT TO CHEER ME UP?! FUCK YOU! TRY BURNING ME TILL IM ALL ASHES AND SEND
ME TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS THAT WOULD CHEER ME UP!


THANK YOU FUCKERS!


                                                         
That's enough of angst and hatred.


Ides of March:


Tie me up with sheets and hang me from
your tree. I'll stay out here all night, it doesn't even matter. As long as i
can see into your room, and feel like I'm inside your life, I'll follow you
forever. Don't cut me down just yet, I'll make things right again. Don't close
your blinds on me.


I WILL NEVER RECOVER FROM THIS, I'LL NEVER BELIEVE IN
THIS AGAIN. I CAN NEVER GO BACK TO THE WAY I USED TO BE BEFORE THIS STARTED.


The Snow won't go away, my nose runs down my face. No
one see me here.
IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER.
And EVERY STEP I TAKE I STAY IN THE SAME PLACE.


I CAN'T BEGIN TO START AGAIN, WHY CAN'T I JUST BE
PERFECT?


You've seen my ghost and you'll never forget it. My
face is as white as the snow that haunts me. Your window's my door and nothing
can stop me. Sometimes betrayal can make you happy.


--> Its so damn hard. To live a life of lies. A
life of endless sacrifices. That sometimes, you do the stupidest things and you
regret it. Only fools regret the things they've done and i guess I'm the biggest
fool. Ive left and hurt an important person, she has moved on and i guess all i
am to the person is a name and a number.


I don't blame anybody but myself for the shithole i dug myself in. call it
karma. call it stupidity. call it whatever you fucking want. I made myself a
promise before, that id always be hers and i guess its haunting me. I made
mistakes, im only human, but this mistake i can't correct. I've given my 200%
and right now, its still hers. I dont want it back, in a way i dont plan to take
it back.


Call me stupid, but all i want is for her to be happy. I know how i feel, I
know it can never be returned now with what i've done but still, I feel that
way.


So FUCK all of YOU who would judge me. FUCK all of YOU who would pity me.
FUCK all of YOU who dont understand! FUCK all of YOU who made me feel all is a
mistake!


Always and Never:


This was my fate, giving in, to your lips to your eyes.
I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
IT WOULD COME BACK TO HAUNT ME.
Crooked smile, a reflection in your eyes that
shows my weakness for beautiful mistakes, something that I know you've seen
before. I'm not the first. Set the trap, I'm falling for it every time. I can't
believe every one knew from the start,
THIS WOULD COME BACK TO HAUNT ME. I CAN'T
STAND TO SEE YOU NOW
.
How could I ever trust you?


I'LL TAKE IT BACK TO THE STREETS, I'LL START AGAIN. I'LL NEVER LOOK BACK,
I'LL NEVER LOOK BACK.


How do you feel? I BET YOU DON'T FEEL ANYTHING. DON'T HAVE A HEART ATTACK,
DON'T HAVE A HEART ATTACK. BUT I WONT STOP YOU.


Flying high, RAZOR BLADES MAKE PERFECT LINES, ON JUST ABOUT ANYTHING YOU
WANT.


Broken pores spill out.
EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO SAY, IT SHOWS MY
WEAKNESS FOR FALLING IN LOVE WITH MY WALLOWING DESPAIR THAT SHINES IN BLACK.
I'LL TAKE IT BACK, I'LL BUILD IT BACK TO WHAT IT WAS. CUT ME OUT OF YOUR LIFE
LIKE ITS NOTHING, LIKE I'M NOTHING. MAKE BELIEVE YOU CAN LOVE, THAT ITS BETTER,
THAT YOU'RE BETTER. PART OF ME IS GONE, YOU'VE TAKEN PIECES OF ME. IT WONT STOP,

YOU NEVER CHANGE


--> I'm in a sorry state right now. And a part
of me doesn't want to move on. It's a final decision of mine. I guess things
will never change with me.


I have been a jerk, no I am a jerk, an ass, and all those dumb titles girls
give guys. (stupid hos!) I've learned these by hurting people, hurting those who
aren't supposed to be part of this, and it hurts.


I've hurt someone, due to my stupidity, my lack of intelligence and
understanding of my own feelings. I've paid the price. I hate the fact that I've
hurt someone. I hate myself for it. I HATE THE WORLD FOR IT.


I am sorry. I know there's no excuse for that, still i am sorry. You know who
you are. I wouldn't be surprised if people you knew start to hate me. I
understand, I'm used to being hated. I am hated.


To all of those who judge me because of this FUCK YOU! To those who didn't
bother to help FUCK YOU! To those who doesn't even try to understand FUCK YOU!
and to the World FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE MISERABLE!


Running from Lions:



Cut me out of this place, before i cause more damage. A small price to pay
for building houses out of match sticks. and when things get to hard, you have
get me to blame for every fight that breaks out for every lovers name.



DON'T FORGET WE'VE GOT UNFINISHED BUSINESS, STORIES
LEFT TO UNFOLD, TALES THAT MUST BE RETOLD.  AS I REGRET NOT KNOWING WHEN TO
PUT AN END TO ALL THESE MADNESS, KEEPS ME WANTING, KEEPS ME WANTING MORE.



show me how I'm yesterday's old news freezes and left on paper black and
bleeding through pages, where we made our history. Call me foolish, i feel
helpless.



RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER FELT  LIKE SUCH A
MISTAKE. ( Like a dear caught in the headlights) RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER FELT SUCH A
MISTAKE ( I wont know what hit me me.) RUNNING FROM LIONS NEVER
FELT SUCH A MISTAKE.( Like a dear caught in the headlights) RUNNING FROM LIONS
NEVER FELT SUCH A MISTAKE ( I wont know what hit me me.)



--> I guess, The song speaks for it self. I feel
like the things i do are mistakes. It shows and tells me a lot on how i am. and
i understand.



I hate the fact that I cant put an end to all these madness. I don't want
this madness to end.



I am sorry, to all that got affected. I've made such mistakes, and thus lost
things very dear to me. I am Foolish, I am helpless.
I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT. I HATE THE FACT THAT I
JUST FOUND OUT WHEN EVERYTHING WAS TOO LATE, AND I HURT PEOPLE. I BLAME MYSELF.



I'M JUST HANGING ON HOPE FOR THE FUTURE. A
VERY SMALL AND UNSURE PART OF THE FUTURE TO HAPPEN. I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE ARE
BETTER OF WITHOUT ME. I KNOW THEIR DOING A LOT BETTER THAT I AM GONE.



I JUST HOPE.



                                                                     



                                                                             
P.S. No more EMO SHIT . THIS IS THE LAST. (I hope.)



                                                                                                          



Always All Ways:



I GUESS
I'M TRYING TO SAY I'M SORRY,
BUT IT ALWAYS COMES
OUT WRONG,
I
THINK A PART OF YOU STILL LOVES ME, EVEN THOUGH WE'RE MOVING ON.




ALWAYS, ALL WAYS I WANTED US TO BE, ALWAYS, ALL WAYS
YOU AND ME,
AND I WAIT HERE ON MY OWN,

AND I WAIT FOR YOU TO SEE, ALL THE TIME I SPEND ALONE NOW WONT COMFORT ME,




ALWAYS ALL WAYS...



AND I'M SORRY FOR WHAT HAPPENED,
BUT I WANT YOU THERE TO SEE, THAT I'M CHANGING ALL MY
ACTIONS,
I DON'T WANNA SET YOU FREE.



ALWAYS, ALL WAYS I WANT TO SEE YOU THROUGH, ALL WAYS
YOU AND ME,
AND I WAIT HERE ON MY OWN,

AND I WAIT FOR YOU TO SEE, ALL THE TIME I SPEND ALONE NOW WONT COMFORT ME,


 



 





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